despair and hatred

Ever wonder how Germany grew into such a strong Army and was Feared During the World War 2?

It was because of World War 1.. when they were made to signed a treaty.. both germany and the allies suffered great loss but germany was made to pay for the reparation of the damage they have done.. they suffered inflation and economical problems and were only allowed to keep a small army..

They were treated with unfairness, and being despised.. the hatred in them grew due to the sufferings they endured because of the treaty.. and therefore this hatred helped them emerge into a strong army during the world war 2..

this same hatred has been living in me.. the hatred of being treated unfairly, outcasted, I despise favourtism to the core of my heart..!! what ever happened to fairness and equality??

Is this justice.. Is this love? why do we treat each other with favourtism? why do we seperate among ourselves and form cliques.. isint cliques form because of our differences.. so why isit that we seperate ourselves because of our indifference.. THIS SHLDNT BE THE WAY!! What do you gain by doing so!!

will anyone hear my cries of my heart and see how much despair im in!! the pain i suffer never seems to go away... if this world is full of favourtism, then let the weak befriend the weak and they shall overpower the strong.

IF SO let those who show favourtism be the victim of favourtism itself.. may they suffer the same pain i have and their cries never be heard..

christmas wish?

sometimes i just wish that i could be the one to be with you!
then sometimes i wonder if all these will just turn out to be another dream
then again sometimes all i was trying to do was love you.
and then i realize that all i wanted for you was to be happy.. it pains me, but may you have a blessed and happy life with ure bf.. and that he can bring joy to u!


though you never wonder when, but ill still be here if you need me then.
til here i hope u will understand, that i really love you as a friend.

December!!

december.. christmas is coming.. such a joyful event with the bright lights, of streets and celebration..food,gift & cards. but im not in any mood for christmas...
i wish that god had not create me to make me suffer so much.. i guess im gonna spend christmas alone.

what im good at?

well..... if im bad at being good, i guess im at least good at doing bad, and thats a compliment.
will always be the bad guy. never saves, never wins,and never get the girl.

Where is God?

when life is unfair.. and problems hits you in the face one after another... And all god said was '' iloveyou'' and ''im here'' but it seems that i cant feel any of you nor do i feel ure love bcuz problems still come and you have done nothing.
so are you powerless or hiding your ''powers'' ? u said you were holding me in your arms.. so are you just bragging, bcuz why cant you show yourself.?
your purpose of allowing purpose is to strengthen us, but it seems many of these problems cause deep hurts in people.. and you still dare to say you love us.?

surely our lives are not a game. So why do u test us if u know we will fail!!!!
im sick and tired of this nonsense of gods ''love'' simply to put it this way you dont give a shit!

God!?

Its Either God is playing fucking hide and seek, or just doesnt give a shit!

Tiring

School started this week and there are so many things to learn already x.x !!
plus the 2hrs+ of bus journey is really getting me tired... wish holidays were longer man..

went to eat with peter wang and a few others, then lan!!
and rooney is leaving manutd!!?