christmas wish?

sometimes i just wish that i could be the one to be with you!
then sometimes i wonder if all these will just turn out to be another dream
then again sometimes all i was trying to do was love you.
and then i realize that all i wanted for you was to be happy.. it pains me, but may you have a blessed and happy life with ure bf.. and that he can bring joy to u!


though you never wonder when, but ill still be here if you need me then.
til here i hope u will understand, that i really love you as a friend.

December!!

december.. christmas is coming.. such a joyful event with the bright lights, of streets and celebration..food,gift & cards. but im not in any mood for christmas...
i wish that god had not create me to make me suffer so much.. i guess im gonna spend christmas alone.